Positive Diversion

 It was a pleasant day, the orange sun hiding behind the concrete apartments rises and I woke up in the morning to see my alarm buzzing at 5:00 AM and recollected that I have to go GYM, while doing workouts I thought about improvising myself day by day. Suddenly I recollected that, a pending assignment from office should be submitted on that day itself. After the exhaustive workout session I rushed to home for completing the assignment. While preparing the draft I saw the clock and concluded that it was not possible to do breakfast and left for work with empty stomach. While I was in office, my day started with a new challenge, I was allotted a big project and I also needed to submit the previous project reports in swift mode. By the end of lunch session I rushed to attend the important call from my manager. Next came the meeting and tea break. After that I was running behind the time to complete the pending work before leaving the office. When I left the office and was on the...

Of late I observed that, I gradually lost interest in doing things that improve my personal growth. This situation arised because of my uninterrupted failures. I have written same exam every year to enter into one of the most prestigious company in the country, yet I fail so miserably that it broke my enthusiasm without any mercy. I feel sorry for myself when I went up to the interview stage after written exam and failed once again.

 Life is full of surprises. You may have expected one thing to happen and life will give you another thing, I have experienced this in my life. I fed up with the excuses I was telling to myself, to console for my losses in the past few years. Even now I am literally in cross roads. I don't know what may happen in my future, this bothered me for quite a while. I know that I have got skills , which if I could use in the righteous manner can help in becoming a better person than yesterday. Yet I am not confident to face this reality some how.